Knee-deep in weeds, I picked the raspberries, eating almost as many as I put into the bowl. Suddenly, out of the corner of my eye, I saw something move. A giant black and yellow spider crept across its web a mere two feet away.
I dropped to the ground, and raspberries flew in every direction. What if it gets me? I thought as I crouched down and peered through the weeds. I imagined if it saw me it would somehow grab me and torture me in its sticky web. When I thought the spider wasn’t looking, I crept out of the weeds, leaving behind all those luscious berries.
That was so many years ago, but this memory came back to mind as I tried to help my six-year-old granddaughter deal with her terror over a wasp that got into the house recently. Like a brave grandma, I saved the day with the help of a can of flying insect spray.
In the midst of her screaming and frantic running around the kitchen, I confess I reprimanded Destiny for getting so scared. The grown-up forgetful side of me even pretended I did not now and never did let such things frighten me to that extent. But then I remembered those spiders.
Even as an adult, I still have fears as exaggerated as my childhood fear of spiders. Too often, instead of trusting God, I become immobilized, losing the blessings God wants to give me. Yet these current-day situations I fear have no more power over me than I choose to give them.
Over the years I’ve tried to free myself from adult fears–like fear of failure, fear of success, fear of being misunderstood. It doesn’t work. The good news is God has given me a solution to my battle with fears.
“I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears” (Psalm 34:4 NIV).
It doesn’t say “a few of my fears” or “most of my fears.” It says “all my fears.” Just as I’ve longed to help my children and my grandchild overcome fears, God, my Father, wants to do just that for me. When I feel it happening–the fears just melting away–I am filled with gratitude.
I’m going to keep seeking Him–every time I spot a “spider” that seems overwhelmingly scary.
And I’m praying for faith to keep believing He will answer.
What fear has you backing off from goals and blessings? Seek God. He wants to free you.