Recently I entered into my quiet time battling self-pity. I questioned God’s justice.
Father, if You love me so much, then why does it seem some others are more blessed than me?
They seem to have fewer trials—especially in family life. In the past this line of thinking had led me to consider, “God, You must love them more than You love me.”
God’s answer led me down another course.
Elaine, you count only ease and smoothness of life as blessings. Trials are blessings. Trials draw you to me and grow your faith.
Then James 1:2 & 3 came to mind.
Consider it all joy…when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. NASB
Next to that verse in my Bible I wrote awhile ago the definition of endurance– “the quality that does not surrender to circumstances nor succumb when under pressure.”
As I was honest with myself, I had to admit trials had helped me in the area of enduring.
Since then I’ve been thinking a lot about trials. When I look back on them through God’s eyes, I’m able to thank Him for using them for my good and His glory.
And I’m praying for the grace to skip the complaining and self-pity and move straight to the joy when I first encounter a new trial. That’s when I will know I’m a mature Christian. Lord, help me grow up.
We cannot choose our trials,
by which we climb
the mountain of faith.
But God in infinite wisdom
knowing more where we
need to grow
than we do
We can choose
to count it all joy.
What about you? Are you caught in a web of self-pity and questioning God? Or are you choosing to “consider it all joy?”