He lies. He deceives. He has no empathy. He won’t listen.
Once again I find myself looking up Psalm 37—the psalm I turn to when feeling torn over what a “wicked” person has been doing to me. The psalm starts out: “Fret not yourself because of evildoers.” That’s just what I’ve fallen into—again.
These verses stand out:
Cease from anger and forsake wrath; fret not yourself—it tends only to evildoing…For yet a little while, and the evildoers will be no more; though you look with care where they used to be, they will not be found. (8-10 amp)
I confess I’ve been giving in to anger. This issue isn’t a big one—in the context of my whole life–but still fussing and fuming is taking over my soul. If it was only in the past, it seems I could forget about it. But every time we’re together some new bad thing happens—especially in my attitude.
I know I have to stop this fretting. God reminds me in this psalm that it leads only to making matters worse—to becoming like the person who’s hurting me.
The promise God brings back to mind is that those who are the evildoers in my everyday world won’t be there forever. They will be cut off. That has happened again and again. God removes them from my life. I think of ten years ago, and many of the people who were fighting against me are no longer there. Some have died. And the others? About most of them I can say: I have no idea where they are.
In the “mean” time—in this present situation–I have an assignment. That is to avoid fretting. For me fretting leads to unforgiveness–to feeling bitter and even thinking about revenge.
Some thoughts that spring from freedom are: Is it possible God put this person in my life to remind me of the importance of forgiveness—of the benefit of avoiding bitterness? Of extending mercy?
I feel like I’m losing because of what this person has been doing. God shows me I’m losing because of what I’ve allowed this situation to do to me. Winning comes when I forgive and show God’s mercy.
I’m seeing how much this person needs the Lord and how blessed I am with all the benefits that come from knowing Him. Could it be that showing God’s mercy will draw this wayward soul to the Lord? I pray it would be so. God, give me grace to forgive.
How about you? Is there someone in your life that is challenging your kindness quotient? Are you willing to embrace God’s grace, so you can forgive?
(Note: this is not the same person I wrote about in last week’s blog.)