Lately the Lord pointed out an error in my ways.
Too often—especially when I’m faced with heart-tearing rejections—my hearts cries, “Lord, I need You to…” The end of that sentence has to do with changing the person who has betrayed me.
These cries turn into demands of, “If You loved me, Lord, You would give me what I need—a change in this other one, so I won’t be hurt again.”
The correction I received from the Lord in recent days which applies to all my cries during hard times is this:
Change Your heart cries from “I need You to…” to “I need You.”
Praying, “I need You” is a prayer God responds to. He wants to meet my needs not with a change in my circumstances or a change in people in my life who disappoint me. Instead He desires to meet my deep needs with Himself.
As long as I demand He intervene with changing other people’s hearts and minds as far as how they view right and wrong and wronging me, I cannot receive what I really need, which is more of Him.
So I’m abandoning these attempts to coerce God into giving me what I think I need. Instead I’m open to receiving all that He knows I need.
The Word tells me of two things I can receive as I make the Lord my first and most important need. These two gifts which are at the core of who God is are mercy and grace.
Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16 ESV
OK. So someone has hurt me. Boo! Hoo! my self-pity blubbers. What is the first thing God wants to flow through me? His mercy. I need it for me because of how I’ve fail to handle rejection in a faith-filled way. Then I need to let that mercy flow and forgive the one who hurt me.
Next He gives me His grace to move on and continue to be all He’s called me to be.
When I admit that what I think I need are really wants and even demands and what I really need is Him, He intervenes—not to change other people, but to make a change in me. To make me more like Him.
These verses speak clearly to my recent challenges:
The humble shall see it and be glad; you who seek God, inquiring for and requiring Him [as your first need], let your hearts revive and live! For the Lord hears the poor and needy… Psalm 69:32 AMP
Lord, help me to continue to let go of “I need You to…” and embrace “I need You” thinking. Thank You for humbling me with this truth.